A Perfect Circle

It was not a great day. I called my close friend this afternoon, I said, "Tell me again that I'm doing the right thing, working here". He reassured me, gave me some great words of wisdom, and I felt better. Sort of.

The members whom I serve, well they made a choice today that I didn't agree with. I didn't agree for personal reasons, but that I can live with. It was a bad decision for the association, made willfully by a handful of people who represent 25,000 other people.

So okay, I'm not saving lives. It's not fighting for civil rights, it's not fighting for any great or noble cause. But still...

I still can't seem to let it go.

A lot of days, I chill out by listening to A Perfect Circle on my headphones, today was definitely one of those days. This song especially seemed appropriate:

The Outsider

Help me if you can
It's just that this, this is not the way I'm wired
So could you please,

Help me understand why
You've given in to all these
Reckless dark desires

You're lying to yourself again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the faultline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
I'm over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess. Why would I want to watch you.

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die